New Ideas

I don't care about money anymore. I think I'm going to just make the most colorful sign I can, try to dress up in my old cheerleading uniform, and stand on the corner trying to get a dollar from everyone I can, or at least maybe a cigarette! Anything would help!

Diaries of a Daybreak Diva

If you never had the chance to read the free book (or ramblings of a crazy nut) that was entitled Diaries of a Daybreak Diva, don't worry, it will be available soon after my current book is published. You will have the chance to find out the true story behind the crazy acts that made national news back in June of 2010. I have come a long way and learned so much about life and about myself. I have found my soul mate and have plans to become an OB/GYN. I have let go of religion, and will show in my current book how religious dogma and doctrine cause the "mentally ill" to go crazy because they force them to feel guilty and judge themselves too harshly. I don't ever feel guilt anymore! I recognize that I have power within my self in order to make good things happen in my life. No praying necessary! Heaven already exists here on earth for me!!! If you are interested in getting to know me, you are welcome to find me on facebook, Sylvina Crofts Poland.

Where Much is Given, Much is Required

I have been feeling a little guilty lately because I have been given so much, and haven't been paying it forward as much as I usually do. It's hard sometimes to accept the gift of time for self. I've had a lot of time on my hands lately (and have spent the majority of it sleeping because of guilt). Today I realized that this is precious time that has been given to me to take care of myself (for once). A call from a church leader today made that very clear to me. He told me that sometimes we are required to give, but sometimes we aren't. It would be wrong of me to waste the time I have to myself. So, to all of my family, I love you very much!!! I'm excited for the future times that we will spend together, but for now, I need to take care of myself (spiritually, physically, mentally, and emotionally). The Lord knows that I have many weaknesses and I've inherited some defects to my personality, but through the Lord's help, and with the willingness to improve myself, hopefully those future times we get will be better than ever (void of dwelling on the undesirable past and full of gratitude for the people we have become and the relationships we have yet to create).

Leading Music

In the summer of 2007, I was called to be the Chorister in Relief Society. I only had that calling for 7 or 8 months, but at first I was soooo frightened. I'm not a very musically inclined person. I don't play any instruments and I don't have a good singing voice. I learned a lot about reading music during that time and I loved sharing information about the hymns during practice time. I also had the opportunity to sing in a choir directed by Merrilee Webb for the Women's Conference in September of 2007. What an amazing and spiritual experience that was!!! It literally changed my life. By the time I was released and put in the nursery, I was so comfortable and happy with my calling that I was sad to go. I did my best in the nursery for 9 months, then had to be released due to PTA stress! Now that my time as PTA President is coming to an end, I have received a new calling (back to the nursery), but because of our recent ward split, I have been asked to lead music in Sacrament meeting a couple times. Today I had the chance to lead and I loved it! I love being able to see everyone's faces during sacrament meeting and as long as I'm familiar with the hymns, I feel very comfortable! Earlier in the week, I had been feeling very negative about my call to the nursery, but I finally received the spiritual confirmation that I had been praying for...through an email...and I realized that the Lord called me to take care of those precious kids in the nursery as if they were my own...with the same love and concern I would give to my own children! So today was amazing! I actually loved being in the nursery and I did my best!!! I didn't think the day could get any better until around 6:00 pm when I received a phone call from Rebecca Browne in our ward asking if I could lead the music for the fireside tonight at 7:00. We were privileged to be able to hear from Greg Olsen, the Artist. It was an honor to me that they would ask me to lead after having led in Sacrament today. I know that Heavenly Father knows and loves each of us and will provide us with opportunities to serve and to grow if we will open the door of our hearts to Him!!!

Running Shoes

On Thursday, Shawn and I got to spend the day together after my PTA meetings. He took me to the Wasatch Running Center so that I could get fitted for some new running shoes. I have decided to join the Daybreak Divas in the Red Rock Relay this year! I have 6 months to train and get in shape...I can't wait! Shawn was so sweet to just buy my shoes without flinching or complaining when they told us the cost. $95 on sale for $85! Later on, Shawn said that was the most he's ever paid for a pair of shoes! Hopefully it will be worth it. It's great motivation to be on a team because you don't want to let the other members down!

It's About Time!

I created this Blogspot over 2 years ago and this is my first post!!! It's about time!
I guess I've been forced into it because my sister Brenda put a link to it on her blog...
and so as a courtesy to anyone who clicks on that link, I guess I should write something!
I had been planning to go down to St. George for Rachel's baptism this past weekend, but everything tried to keep me from getting there!
Weather forecasts of rain and snow, my daughter getting sick, all 4 tires on my car needing replacement, and just being plain old tired after finding out my little sister, Delcina decided not to go with me.
I thought with her there, it would be easier to go down and come back on the same day since there would be 2 drivers.
In any case, I loaded up and started driving Saturday morning around 10:00. I still felt very uneasy about going...and very indecisive. So what do you do in that situation? Exactly, I called my mommy!
After hearing my problems, she told me that I should probably turn around because it's not worth risking my life and the lives of my children to do this quick trip on bald tires with the possibility of getting stranded in the bad weather...but she said she would pray if we would and see if we all get the same feeling.
I kept driving and called my husband to get his input. I had him call Costco in St. George to see if they had any of my size tires in stock and I could just get them down there. Then my mom called me back, in tears, because she prayed and felt that I did need to continue on...she was crying because she didn't want us to get hurt but definitely knew that we would be kept safe and that there was a reason for us to be down there with Brenda!
That was enough to give me strength and courage to keep going! And it was worth it! I was happy to be there with Brenda since everyone else cancelled. I did end up getting a hotel because the room in Brenda's house that I had cleaned up the last time I was there was now being shared by 2 of her kids and I thought it would be a lot more fun for my kids to be able to spend some time swimming...so we ended up at our favorite hotel, Best Western Coral Hills for 2 nights. We "surprised" Brenda at church on Sunday (she said she knew I would be there). She made me come sit on the front row, so of course being fast and testimony meeting, I ended up going up, then Robbie gave the sweetest testimony and made us all cry, and it was wonderful to see Brenda go up and share her feelings about Rachel's baptism, that even though every event in the Reep Family is usually huge, this one turned out small, sweet and simple, just like Rachel!!!